Examed month

Anxiety, excitement, curiosity, hope...all these and many more was wandering about inside my head, eyes wide open and brain machinery whizzing...though attempted to pretend that I knew everything but decided to stay silent.....this is what happened to me when for the first time I traveled in a GO Bus heading to Toronto Union Station.....left home almost 2 hours before, thinking that this is the first time...should always have some time in hand....the ride was quite good...everybody focused on their own thoughts....some looked like their mind might have taken a higher plane of knowledge...so well-versed...seemed to me like they drank from the fountain of knowledge....while this was my observation, I thought to myself "I don't know anything about luck. I've never banked on it, and I'm afraid of people who do. Luck to me is something else; hard work and realizing what is opportunity and what isn't it" as quoted by Lucille Ball....not very sure if that mystery meeting would ignite the circuits of my highest potential....my trembling hand slowly reached the yellow line...the realization came that, deep down, "that it wasn't too bad as I expected to be"......felt the liberating energy from end to end...a place of allowance, unshackled by the tyrannies of ideology....

I considered walking towards the address as I roughly had an idea as to where it would be. My glance swung to a digital clock display...gosh I'm 1 hour 45 minutes early....I considered then taking a stroll on the same street being a beautiful sunny day...therefore kept walking gazing at people, seemed like a rat race at every stop light....cars rushing fast, people gathered in bunches at stop lights waiting for that "walking man sign".....lovely tulip flowers in sets blooming on both sides of the road....looking at my cell phone again I realized it was about time for me to go back to the office where my test is ( for a job opportunity).....completely unprepared, simply going with the attitude "let's give it a shot"....after waiting for good 15 minutes a voice filtered through " Thank you for being prompt, please follow me to the exam hall"...Silence was easily managed....the test began after 15 minutes or so and knowing the first section needs to be completed in 25 minutes made my heart beat fast and my hands were sweating and trembling...but gradually I was okay knowing that I finished it and that most of my answers were correct and finished it before 25 minutes gave me a sigh of relief......overall the test wasn't too bad...tried my best and the rest I leave it to Almighty God!

This whole month of May looks like will either open a new chapter for me or it won't... but at the same time "an unexamed life is not worth living".....